Author: Lea Mandikova

By February, everyone gets crazy, pale, and angry and bothers everybody around, knowing that an extraordinary month is coming. It is the month to prepare the tax declaration that should be shortly submitted. While everyone can prepare all documents properly throughout the year, I do not know anyone, who does so. I only know a…

I am not able to say what the bigger challenge is for me. Weather to remove by myself 375 kg of cement in 25 bags from the garage so that I can clean it, or to take car keys. I chose the garage first. I could not look at it anymore. There were bags of…

I like key rings. There are many of them in my key set. I have a complex chain of various big and small snap hooks, holding other snap hooks and rings, so that every key can be easily unchained, if necessary. It is not necessary very often, only sometimes, though. Now, we have a huge…

The most upsetting is that I am not able to offer to girls the same adventures as their dad. There will be cinema, theatre, I will teach them to cook, clean and launder…they know it already. Yes, I paint, read and embroider too. This is as adventurous as if you are plucking feathers in the…

Sometimes I wonder if I am not just dreaming. Is what we are coming through really happening? I go out of the bathroom, take on my pyjama and prepare a dinner. Sometimes I take one additional plate, instinctively. As if I still have not accepted the fact that he is not here. Small reminders are…

I am beginning to think that I live in a house full of ghosts. They leave us alone, if we pretend not to know about them. Whenever, after a long mental persuading that something has to be done, we start a bit of activity, they start disrupting. One ghost is certainly living in our tractor….

After long four months, I gained a strength and decided to sort out things in the Peter’s study. I am still not ready to open the wardrobes where I feel the smell of perfumes that I gave to Peter from all the shirts, T-shirts and costumes. I have no strength, selfishly, to put the clothes…

I cannot come to terms with being widow. Neither with the fact, nor with the label. While filling forms, and there are many of them these days, I feel strange. I want to jump over it. It is not possible. In addition to this new role, I became a man in the household. Despite the…

„Mum, I do not want to be a good cook,” says my daughter Terka today. „What gave you that idea? “I ask. „I have taught you to do things well”. „Should I understand that you want to cook poorly or do not want to cook at all?” By the way, I am setting „a good…